I cannot even begin to tell you about all of the blog posts I have written in my head, But when it came time to sit down and actually write them, I felt lost. I have kind of felt lost ALL year long with things going on at school and at home. But I have realized how much blogging helps me reflect on my attitude and where my heart is....it is sometimes the compass that helps me point my heart back towards God and the reasons why I love teaching despite how challenging and draining it can be.
Every May, I find myself making a list of all of the things I will do better next year. I tell myself I will be more purposeful in my guided reading lesson plans and Writing Workshop mini-lessons. I tell myself I will stay on top of grading papers so I am not entering grades on the day they are due at 11:58 pm! I also realize how there are so many things I could have done better if I had looked at changing myself first.
Do you ever find yourself wanting to change others....both little people and big people?
And it is often the BIG people we want to change the most because we think they should know better! :)
I have to remind myself daily....and sometimes minute by minute...that the only person I can change is myself and how I respond to that person and that situation.
I know I have found times when I make excuses for myself and have found it easy to place the blame on others or something else. Have you heard these excuses before?
I have a tough class this year.
I don't like this curriculum.
Admin has no clue what it is like in the classroom.
Their parents don't care about their grades.
They never listen.
They NEVER hush!
You don't understand what my team is like!
I have NO help or support from home!
It does no good to send the children to the office.
This child (or grown-up) drives me CRAZY!!!
These excuses do nothing to SOLVE the problem. In fact, we often use them to justify the things we do. I know I have been guilty of that before. :(
So when that starts to happen, I realize I need to pray and find the things that help me point my mind and heart back on a better path.
Some of my favorite thoughts from Conscious Discipline always help ground me and remind me how I don't need to change others only myself.
How you respond to a child's upset teaches them how to respond to others when they are upset.p. 192
What you focus on, you get more of. What we offer others we strengthen in ourselves. p. 160
Love see the best in people, even children. p.162
Whomever you have placed in charge of your feelings, you have placed in control of you. p.28
This song always helps to remind me of how God will change us so it is not up to me to try and change others.
So instead of thinking of all of the things I need and will do better next year, I remind myself about reaching and touching their hearts first. I remind myself that through the tough times I will face with my kiddos to encourage them and love them.
I will remind myself to be kind, patient, and encouraging even when those around me are not.
I will remind myself to show love through the toughest times because we are ALL still learning and changing.
But most of all, I will remind myself that we are ALL broken but God is sculpting each of us into something beautiful!
From My Heart to Yours,